^^

Today, I've been to my high school because I have some documents need signature from principle.

Once I walk in to office..walao...those teacher who knows me all calling me and i call them as well...hmm..how wonderful is that?

I saw some of my ex teacher look ok,but some look worse...hmmm...some do really older...but anyway..I do really feel happy because i can meet them back...hehe..happy lo

NEXT LIFE!!!

Last night..I asked you(Meng): when you're coming back to Malaysia?

MENG answered: NEXT LIFE!!!


How mad am i u know..I ask u nicely u answered me like shit there..

really angry la..if u really like back on next life,just back la..ask u nicely u answered like what...

Useless..

Last Sunday, my best friend(Ling) came to my hostel..she stayed with me for a night..That afternoon..I missed Meng so much, and Ling was chatting online..I want lye on sofa watching movie..Suddenly..Ling received a call who spoke Cantonese with her..I suddenly feel that's something different..I can fee there was a special feeling is coming to me..After few minutes, she told me that that's Meng..and I suddenly feel so nervous , I dont know why...

She past the phone to me and I as usual say hello to Meng.. I had been stop for kinda long time and only say hello to him..I dont know hwy..after say hello,and he answered..And I don't know what to say any more..I was stuck...And I past back the phone to Ling..

I knew I've got a lot of thing want to talk to him but....once he calls, my brain is totally blank...I really feel that I'm useless lo.. I knew that we already separated.. I know there is no more chance for me any more..but..what I wish is i dont want to loose a friend.. Although we can;t be couple,but...What about friend???

I don't know...I really dont know...

Every time, when I say hello to him on msn..the way he reply also like....hmmm...I really dont know...I feel that..he doesn't want to chat with me..It seems like have a wall separated us..

I do really want to talk to him like last time..like friend..but..haih..I don't know...I start don't know myself right now..Am I that horrible? Am I that terrible? Am I that..

I REALLY DON"T KNOW


Should I stop talking to him? Should I forget about him? I've tried...BUT..Is not easy..The more I ignore,the more I miss him..the more i love him..damn!!!!!

I'm such a FOOL!!


I DO HONEST TO TELL YOU: 'MENG, I DO REALLY WANT TO TALK TO YOU, I DO REALLY WANT TO TALK TO YOU LIKE HOW I TALK,JOKE,CRAZY WITH MY FRIEND...I DON'T WANT THE FEELING LIKE ENEMY...' ( I wish you can read this)




Anyway,I still treat you as my friend .and I wish we do really back to past...I meant..how happy we were...*happy ever*

Happy Birthday

Today,7th June..Is Meng's birthday...I can't wish too much..What I wish is wish he's happy always, and good luck for everything..

Meng..must take care ok?(tiamo)

please..Do that favor for me

Hmm..This few weeks..I'm not feeling well..and I went to see doctor...After took many kind of body check..I found that..hmmm..Then,,Now..I have to go see doctor every 1 week..and get check..Hmm..why...Why me...Really suffer one lo..Now is finals..and..I got this kind of sickness..I really don't know how la..I see doctor also use a lot money..every time ask from parents I will feel guilty.. But..If I don't ask money from them, I have no money see doctor..

I really really tired and nothing to say now..What I can do is..always concentrate my studies, always appreciate what I have got now..Especially Meng..I wish he happy always in Australia, enjoy his life there..

But, I do really wish can see him..For 1 minute is more than enough for me..Must take care ok?

Please..Do that favor for me..I don't want anything happen to you..

cool~~

today..actually we're having exam..But...canceled...and i back to hostel and did a test : are you in love? after i have done the quest..the result totally 100% same like my situation :

You have a crush on someone! Crushing is a bit different than love, but it feels like almost the same thing. You think of that special person constantly, and your heart is full of hope and anticipation. Good luck to you!


....I got shock..any way..My feeling still with him...Meng...Although we are separated for1 year plus..but..I clearly understand that I do really love him..I still..

I'm Happy although I'm sick

Hmm..why the internet in my hostel are s suck? I can't stand anymore and i took out my 1st ex-bf(Meng) gift me the 3G phone and play for nothing because the phone had problem since last year.I already spent about RM400 to repaired the phone but,that day i took from my Korea friend,The phone still doesn't work..I really up set.

BUT, Today, I were mad with my internet and i took the phone out and play..I try to change the network setting because my Korea friend said that in Korea the phone after repaired it is working..So,,I try to change some network setting..FINALLY!!!! the phone back from my hand!!

GOSH!!! I were so happy although I'm sick here..Now..I keep using the phone already...I want bring it to every where any place..It seems like I'm bring Meng with me ...^^

This is the phone he gift...really happy o~~~^^ haha XD